But I ain't giving up, not by a long shot.
Something Old Man Coates said in the video above really spoke to me (about 45:00), when he was telling his own story of coming up as a journalist:
I knew what I wanted to do. And I really think that nothing else matters besides that... From my perspective, no one should ever go into journalism—or writing of any real form—for money. It probably pays worse now than it paid then. I think there were career tracks then—there are probably less career tracks now... You do it because you can't not do it.That's exactly how I feel. Now that I've made the initial leap I can't imagine not being a journalist and writer for the rest of my life. I'm just as certain and confident now that I have made the right choice as I have ever been.
And so, today, I had another interview, this time at Mother Jones, for a paid internship. I'll keep you posted how it goes.